A couple of months back, I heard some of the hardest words a woman of child-bearing age who wants to have children could hear...
here). We've poured out our hearts to God about our desire for this blessing and many friends have joined us in approaching the throne of grace with this request.
We decided on a course of action with my doctor. We had blood work done. I had an HSG test (x-ray scan). Everything came back normal with no statistically significant deviations. When my doctor called to discuss the latest results and next steps, we had our initial diagnosis...
What my heart heard: "We have no clue why you aren't pregnant already..."
I'll tell you, it's not quite what I expected. It's only the initial, easy tests of course, but still. I guess I thought if there was anything actually wrong that it would come up by now. I assumed it would be an easy issue that would resolve with just a few more pieces of information, more data. I assumed wrong.
So now we move forward in faith. We're discussing next steps with my doctor and will soon choose a path to follow. We've started to discuss at what point we stop any medical treatments and begin pursuing adoption.We continue to pray and lay our hearts out before God. We know that He has a plan for us.
It may not make this journey any easier, but it is reassuring to know that my tear-soaked prayers are heard by the One who loves me most. May God see fit to bless us in His timing.
"She was deeply distressed and prayed to the Lord and wept bitterly." 1 Samuel 1:10
Soli Deo Gloria,